Chester

About 4 weeks ago the world lost a legend.

A wife lost her husband.
Children lost their father.
People lost their friend.
A band lost their band mate.
Fans lost their idol.

I lost my hero.

To the members of Linkin Park: Mike, Joe, Dave, Rob, and Brad:

We grieve with you. Chester was a light. A soaring spirit. A survivor. He touched many lives including my own.

Several years ago, I hit rock bottom. I decided one night while my family was out, I feigned the flu. Instead I swallowed 68 sleeping tablets determined that at the very least my family wouldn't be near.

Something happened. I changed my mind. I was listening to LP at the time. I decided I wasnt ready to give up. Instead I drove myself to the hospital. Falling asleep blocks from the hospital, I made it. What followed was an intense two week period in which I wished I never drove myself to the hospital. Those were the darkest days I ever had. Thinking about them now brings back the pain and demons I had. The fear I had. The hatred I had for myself and my existence.

Today I'm glad I changed my mind. Your band pulled me through the darkest days. Chester pulled me though the darkest days. Your albums are still my soundtrack.

When I heard about Chester, I was devastated like many. I spent the remainder of the day in a fog trying to come to the terms of the loss of my hero. How can a man who's songs and passion pulled me from darkness not find the strength to carry forward? How can the man who saved me and countless others not find the strength to just keep going?

I'm so very glad I had two chances to tell you all what you mean to me. Then and now.

Thank you for sharing Chester with us. Whatever the future of Linkin Park, thank you for being there. For us all.

Janine

Update

I did start working at Tim Hortons. In fact I got hired on the spot. I turned in my resume the Monday, got the call Tuesday for an interview the next day, and started training Wednesday at 1pm after my 10am interview. It’s been okay, lots of ups and downs but nowhere what I was facing before. I am runoff my feet, at times doing more than 8km behind the counter a shift. For the first few weeks I was in serious pain but now I’m pretty well used to being on my feet. I have fun at Timmys but it is hard work. Whoever thinks this is an easy job is very much mistaken. Between dealing with customers I have an array of personalities in my colleagues. I’ve had a few rough shifts where I’ve actually wound up in tears, yesterday especially bad. There’s a few individuals that just can’t seem to get that I’m going extremely fast and doing my best. Sometimes it’s really not good enough which is very disheartening given that there’s several people on staff who are content to “fornicate Fifi” or just plain don’t show up for shifts. Then there’s me running my ass off and I’m the one being ridden?  Yesterday morning it was the same old and I had it. This morning my boss approached me before my shift this morning about how I was doing an amazing job and that’s she’s really impressed by me. She also thinks I’m going to be one of the ‘stars’ on her team (so someone must’ve spoken to her about my meltdown). For whatever reason it was nice to hear her acknowledgment, I actually started tearing up again, then she gave me a hug.

I think I’m mostly overwhelmed because in not used to this. I scheduled my days, now they’re scheduled for me. I was my own boss, now people dictate to me what I should be doing. It is definitely the lower responsibility I was hoping for and my hands have really healed up since I left IG. Check this out:

The next two pics are from July 12, 2015:

This was August 12: 
This was August 22:

And this was November 20:


Life is beginning to return to some normalcy in regards to the shingles pain (oh yeah, my hands got so bad I contracted shingles. The doc figures my body attacked my immune system  because the excema was so bad.). And the eczema. But now I may have a torn left rotator cuff. Fuck!  I’ve already done XRays. I have an arthrogram and an MRI in PG to look forward to.   But hey at least I can scratch the visit to the Derm in Van.

Today I got an interesting phone call.  My old assistant left IG altogether with no notice this afternoon after a clashing of personalities with none other than the Consultant who stole her from me.  All I will say is life has come full circle in the last couple of months and I’m on the mend.  In a few months, she will be too!  It was definitely not an unexpected call, but certainly one I didn’t expect to come so fast.  I feel bad for her, and I know she feels bad with what happened, in time, she’ll have to find that forgiving herself is the most important thing.  For me, it’s become water under the bridge and I’m finding the more people ask why I left, the less I bring up the “catalyst” and instead focus on my feelings in whole…the simple fact is I was unhappy.  That’s all people need to know. She’s petrified of course, but even after I asked her if she feels better having left, and she does, that’s all she needs to focus on.  In time, my friend and I will be back to where we were.

Christmas has come up so fast this year and I’m mega disorganized, which sucks….because I’m NEVER disorganized.  I’ve just been focusing so much on paying down debt and getting ahead, I forgot a major fricking holiday lol.  By Tuesday though, my shopping should be complete.  Today was payday and a friend I’m doing some side work for paid me some money, so that was nice!  Little by little getting debt paid down and thankfully, I’ll be finished Christmas duties well in advance of the big day 🙂  Despite what’s happened over the past several months, somehow, things always find a way to work themselves out 🙂

 

 

 

Changes- 2015 edition

Two weeks ago, I changed my life……again.

I left Investors Group.  I walked away from my business that took the last three years of everything I had.  I’m devastated but I know I made the right choice.  There came a point (more on that later) when I really got hit with how unhappy I’ve been and mixed with the health issues of my husband and I, really made me realize that its honestly not worth it.

I suppose I have a couple people to thank for that enlightenment.

I hired an assistant back late May.  A personal friend of mine.  She had just gotten fired from a competing firm and our group assistant gave her notice the exact same morning.  It felt like a dream…within 5 minutes I had lost an assistant, and was seriously considering hiring my friend after her text came in letting me know she had lost her job.  So I arranged for an interview a few days later with a couple other Consultants so I could alleviate the cost but still grow my business.  Things were fine, or so I thought.  Turns out another Consultant not involved in the employment of my shared assistant started discussing an opportunity behind my back with my assistant, who then decided to leave my practice for hers.  I am still in complete shock and awe that a friend would do that to me.  I understand her need to ensure her own security and steady paycheck, but frankly she opted to join the wrong practice.  And as for the other consultant who just hired her 3rd assistant within a year, she’s unfriended me on Facebook because somehow in this situation I jilted her?!?!

I followed up with a block.  Clearly not someone who respects me enough to discuss any issues to me directly.  This is also not the first…or second time for that matter that this Consultant has fucked me over.  I just decided working in a shared office with her and my ex-assistant pretending that what they did wasn’t shitty was just not respectful to me or my feelings.  The Monday after my assistant went to work for this consultant, the consultant showed up with flowers.  Right there, where I was working.  There’s obviously not a lot of regard for how I’m feeling being jilted by a friend and a colleague I once respected….someone had to look out for me.  I couldn’t even gather support from my DD who was one foot out the door herself in regards to her management role.  It was the right decision, even though made on emotion.  I haven’t looked back since.  I’m taking several weeks off to work on things around the house and get this out of the state of chaos we’ve made it for the past few years.  I fully plan to hand out resumes and will likely begin working at Tim Hortons within the next couple weeks.  I’m seriously looking for little responsibility with a steady paycheque so we can rebuild!  I don’t care if it’s a step backwards, I’m not above it and I’m actually looking forward to being able to just leave work at work when my day is done.  I haven’t had that luxury in over 5 1/2 years!  I’m putting some focus on boundaries and what I need to ensure I am the best for those I love.

Last night, I did a 5km run.  I was terrified up to the race.  I haven’t been able to run for longer than 2 1/2 minutes at any given time and upon registering learned that the expectation was to jog the 5km with slight walking breaks.  So for 36 hours before the race the worst kept creeping into my mind.  I honestly expected that I’d walk 4km and run 1km…turns out I had the ability to run 4km and walk 1km…so I did.  My time was 42:44…and I’m beyond elated!

I officially hit 64 lbs lost!!!  Yay me.  Still using Isagenix here and there, and still tracking steps and distance daily.  I’ve walked over 2000km this year alone 🙂  Feeling better about myself daily.  I can see my confidence improving…why just 8 months ago when I faced the same decision to stay or walk away from my business, I chose to stay for someone else (my DD and RD)…this time I made the decision for me and my family.  Definitely shows my growth and I’m very excited for the future!

62 pounds and loving it!!!

thats right. Yours Truly has lost 62 pounds. Feeling great, looking great…feeling the confidence slowly start to return.

I’ve lost 45lbs

I don’t remember ever being thin. I don’t remember a time where buying clothes wasn’t a challenge for me. I always remember however, how and when my weight took front row and centre in my life…it started around 8 years old when I’d squeeze I to clothing my mother bought that was very obviously too small for my size. Her thought process was to shame me into dropping 20 lbs so I could fit clothing two sizes smaller. This continued Into 2009 where on top of gaining weight from quitting smoking I threw my back out and I gained 100lbs.

I don’t remember anything but being completely consumed by calories and numbers in a scale.

These days, it’s not any different. I’m still consumed by calories and I monitor the scale nearly daily…. But it’s because I’ve finally taken control of my health and my weight.

Last year I did HCG and I dropped 30lbs. But aside from feeling like to had to defend my choice all the time, it was simply a diet I couldn’t sustain and a lifestyle I couldn’t commit too. I gained everything I lost PLUS more. When your husbands ex begins to lose weight, it becomes a violent shove Into action and I haven’t looked back since.

I bought a fitbit flex mid august. Since then I’ve been obsessive with getting out and getting off my ass. As of today, I’ve lost 45lbs since January 2014 and I feel fantastic. I’m in the best shape I’ve been in years. I’m clean eating, I’m exercising daily, usually doing between 8-15km per day. I’m only 30lbs from my ultimate goal. It doesn’t seem like a long way away. I mean my My Fitness Pal app told me if I did the exact same thing I did today (walk 15km, eat clean with minimal processed foods and sleep 8 hours), I’ll be 10lbs from my goal in 5 weeks!!!!! This is just unreal. I’ve hiked Terrace Mountain numerous times this year. I’ve committing to walking daily and I haven’t missed a beat. I have a wonderful workout buddy and she keeps me on track and motivated. My husband is more attracted to me and I feel more attractive. I just generally feel very good about myself these days!!! I cannot wait to see myself in a bikini next year!!!!! That right there is my ultimate goal…75-90lbs lighter in a bikini. A cute blue or pink one works just fine for me.

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Goodbye Gran

It’s been a while.  Truly!!

To be honest, I haven’t felt much like writing.  The last post I wrote was about ways to stop giving pieces of yourself away and here I go letting go of what’s important to me…my feelings.  It’s just been exhausting thinking about things let alone reliving it by writing it back out.

I lost my grandmother. And since then, I’ve been a little lost myself.

I just got so used to taking care of her and her needs that I completely forgot what it feels like to take care of me, my husband and his children.  I don’t know how to go back to that without great struggle and difficulty.  While Grandma’s illness and death was not unexpected, I don’t think I expected to grieve the way I have been.

She died May 31st and I was there.  Thankfully my mother in law was beside me through it.  As much as I wanted to be alone with Grandma during her final hours, I was thankful (still am) that someone was there for me too, because honestly at that time, my needs and how I’d handle her death weren’t even on my own radar.

I got the call May 30th, the morning after Scott and I got back from Vegas.  I had planned to spend a quiet day at home recovering from our Stateside shenanigans, but I got the call from my husband at 8:30am….and I also noticed missed calls from an “unknown number”(the hospital)….In my heart I knew we were coming to the end.  I half expected my husband to tell me she was gone. She was still with us but barely..they gave her less than 24 hours.  I grabbed my cross-stitch, some lunch, made some calls and prepared to stay until the end.  That day still feels like a dream.  So many people coming and going…nurses stopping by to say their final goodbyes.  The nurse Grandma had that day was astounding.  Truth be told, I always thought she was a bit of a standoffish bitch, but that day, I realized behind her thich skin was a woman who had a heart of gold.  I’d never dealt on that caliber with her and she was so respectful of my grandmother I could’ve kissed her.  Plus she was from Seattle…so she kind of had my heart after that lol.

I remember before Scott and I left for Vegas, Grandma and I had a good visit.  It was the morning before we were due to leave.  I was feeding her breakfast and we were reminiscing about a trip she and I took with my grandfather and cousin Kris.  That trip was the WORST for Kris and I because Grandpa ADORED Johnny Cash and played his tapes (yes CASSETTE TAPES) on repeat. Kris and I were two 13-year-olds who thought our grandparents were ancient bumpkins…the drive was pure HELL.  By the time we reached Kiniskan Lake though, Grandpa and I were singing along together, my favourite being Walk the Line with grandma quietly humming along.  Ever since then, Johnny Cash has been a personal fave.  So back to the hospital that morning….as I’m speaking about the trip to Grandma, who was conscious but not totally with it…on comes Walk the Line on CJFW.  Now I spent YEARS programming that radio station…that song is not a song for morning country radio.  Somehow that song just slipped in at 8:30am on a Friday morning…I just knew Grandpa was with us both.  I told Grandma that I think Grandpa was here to visit and she was just so radiant.  I asked her to stay until we got back so I could tell her all about my trip…she told me she would….and she did!

I’ll never forget when it was her time.  I was cross-stitching with my feet up on her bed, Linda and I were listening to her breathing, measuring it regularly for patterns.  It was wierd…she would take 3 breaths (20 seconds in length) and pause for 30 seconds…those pauses were terrifying.  I kept looking at the pulse in her neck which I could see still moving. Then her breathing quickened to 5 breaths per minute and after those 5, she’d pause for 20 seconds before starting the cycle again….myself still looking at her pulse. At 1:20 am Linda was right beside her, I was getting ready to go to sleep, the day finally catching up to me.  Linda all of a sudden told me I should come closer, her breathing had starting changing.  It was becoming regular, softer, and Grandma started to turn yellow.  I had read somewhere that when a person is close, their arm and fingers, toes and legs start to get cold as the blood moves away from those extremities to protect her vital organs…so when she started turning yellow, I felt her hands, they were ice cold.  I just held her hand, stroked her hair and told her I loved her so very much.  That I will always love her and that the time we spent together is so precious to me.  Then she slipped away….It was the most peaceful thing I’ve ever experienced even though I was terrified.  My Grandma has always been there!  I don’t know how to exist in a world where she isn’t there because she’s always been there.  But I don’t think I was expecting it to happen so quickly and so peacefully.  My relief was just so astounding….I burst into tears as Linda held me for a couple minutes, then we pressed the call button.  The nurse came in and called her time of death.

After the nurse came in and left to give us a few minutes, I made calls to my husband and to my Dad.  The call to Dad was so hard, I was the one to tell him that my grandpa had died in 2005 and then I was the one to tell him Grandma was gone.  Still one of the hardest times of my life making that call.  I began to grab grandma’s stuff and proceed to pack up the few belongings she had left from my cleaning out her apartment the month prior.  Giving up her suite was almost like admitting defeat although the realist in me knew it had to be done, but I was so angry I had to be the one to make that decision by myself.  It felt final to be putting her hospital toothpaste, dentures, Blistex, clothing in bags and packing it by the door while I waited for my husband to come.  I went to sign her death certificate for the hospital and felt a union of night shift nurses around me…we had become allies together in the 4 months she was hospitalized.  Everything was just so surreal.  Once it was time to go and bring everything down to the car, I asked my mother in law and my husband to leave the room for a minute, I wanted a private moment.  I tucked Grandma in, kissed her forehead, fluffed her pillow and bid her goodnight, like I’ve done hundreds of times since February…this time, it was the final goodnight I’ll ever give her.  I still feel like I’m floating just rethinking this.

Life after grandma has just been difficult, figuring out how to get back to a semi normal routine. There have been a few times where I instinctively turn to go to the hospital after dropping my husband off at work.  I wonder when that will stop.  I also wonder when I’ll be able to think of her without wanting to cry.  Her last 10 months of life was just so…fucked up, I wonder IF I’ll be able to think of it without wanting to cry.  I am so thankful she is out of pain and torment, and I meant every word…..no jewellery, amount of money or glory will ever feel as good as the time she and I spent together since November.  I’ll forever look fondly on it, the good and the bad.

 

 

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30 Things to Stop Doing to Yourself.

I saw this on my Facebook news feed.  It’s extremely appropriate for my life right now, so I thought I’d share its wisdom.

Enjoy

-J

#1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.

#2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on. No, it won’t be easy. There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.

#3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

#4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Yes, help others; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.

#5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.

#6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.

#7. Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success. You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.

#8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us. We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.

#9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.

#10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either. You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else.

#11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place. Evaluate situations and take decisive action. You cannot change what you refuse to confront. Making progress involves risk. Period! You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.

#12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.

#13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely. It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company. There’s no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.

#14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you. But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.

#15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others are doing better than you. Concentrate on beating your own records every day. Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.

#16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own. Ask yourself this: “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”

#17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you. You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough. But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past. You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation. So smile! Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.

#18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart. You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate. Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.” It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.” Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself! And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too. If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.

#19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.

#20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway. Just do what you know in your heart is right.

#21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting. Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.

#22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things. The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.

#23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.

#24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile. Don’t take the easy way out. Do something extraordinary.

#25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while. You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears. The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.

#26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life. When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.

#27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out. But making one person smile CAN change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. So narrow your focus.

#28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy. One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years?” If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.

#29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen. Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.

#30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs. Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

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Still a bad blogger…..

So my husband has told me I need to update my blog. After 6 months of nothing, I suppose he’s right. Lol
There is sooooo much to tell and I haven’t been able to muster the energy to put it all into words. Some good, definitely some less than good but the last six months have been nothing short of crazy.
Let’s start here: my grandmother is living in assisted living now. After living with my bitchy and controlling aunt she became extremely depressed and for the well being of everyone involved I took steps to remove her, without my aunt knowing of course. Needless to say, that didn’t go over well. My aunt blames me for the entire fiasco because for some reason her toxicity and treatment of my grandmother is MY fault?!?! Anyway, she’s pretty much spreading shit and lies all over town painting herself in more positive light and there’s me, caretaker for my grandmother. It’s pretty bad when she stands to make a hefty sum when grandma passes and she can’t even pull her head out of her ass long enough to be there for her own mother during her final years. Even when grandma was living there, my aunt was raking in more dough putting my grandma up then what grandma pays now. So this “taking her mother in out of the kindness of her heart” shit she’s tossing around town is pure baloney. She charged her mom an obscene amount of rent and treated her like a useless piece of trash. She treated the rest of us like garbage because we weren’t able to step up more than we did. Dad lives in Alberta, we won’t talk about my useless uncle and we won’t bring in the fact that I have my own family and marriage to think about. But apparently it’s MY responsibility to look after their parent when they’re the ones getting an inheritance. The world isn’t just but at least grandma is taken care of properly these days. But my aunt and I aren’t on speaking terms and to be perfectly honest….I’m much happier for it. She’s a very toxic person and I simply don’t have the energy to placate someone like that. She can go to hell as far as I’m concerned. This isn’t the first time I’ve dealt with grief from her, but it will certainly be the last. She can take her “entitlement” and go fly a kite!

Work has been picking up as of late, which is fabulous. Perhaps this is my year? I have had many challenges, many stumbles, but I’ve prevailed…and so has my awesome husband. It sure takes a good man to support the entire household and not ask for anything in return. I married a really awesome guy….truly! I’ve set many large goals for myself this year including attending APEX this September in Quebec City and starting my CFP this year.

Looks like we’ll be putting Europe plans on the back burner. Financially the trip is too large at this point for my hubby and I. Sad of course because we were really looking forward to it, but a trip like that is not one we want to half ass either. There’s so much to experience….we want to fully enjoy it. Looking at going in another couple of years and have started saving regularly to make it happen for us! We’re thinking we’re going to take advantage of our Vegas trip instead and maybe go with another couple for a week! Pretty stoked about that prospect although nothing has been set in stone yet.

Back on a weight loss kick these days which includes eating better, cleaner and walking more. I’d really like to drop another 45lbs, seems like it’ll be a busy Spring for sure!!!